Tuesday, May 14, 2013

Life

"What is happiness to you David?"

#Cavotuesday

During my prime, yes there was a time when I was on a GOOD ONE, I found myself watching the film Vanilla Sky all the time. It seems silly now but back then I was stoked on it. I have never been a super fan of Tommy Cruise, although I give him a ton of credit for some of his more classic roles over the years, maybe I am just partial towards Cameron Crowe or maybe this movie was just rad, I mean it still is rad.



Certain quotes from the film often ring in my ears at random points through out my days/nights of thinking. I think too much. I have been tripping on the happiness thing for a minute. Also Maslow's hiearachy of needs with the concept that one cannot function properly and will ultimately fail if their physiological needs are not met. These needs are breathing, food, water, sleep, sex, homeostasis, and excretion...I am pretty sure that I have the breathing one taken care of.

Yet the happiness question lingers, it is a heavy one. Happiness is never constant, never a given yet should be a priority. I am tired of saying that I am grateful, I am appreciative...I just want to say "I am happy"....but those 3 words don't quite roll off the tongue that easily.

I came across this quote earlier this week and I wrote it down over and over

"If you change nothing, nothing will change."

My problem with this is that my idea of change is some major drastic shit and that scares me. I have never been a risk taker, maybe that is part of the problem. And now when I read that last sentence over I realize that I need to come up with solutions. I need to push myself more. I have to learn a new way to play the fucking game. I hate games.