#Cavotuesday
The theme of the week is a simple task.
Find something NEW to obsess on.
If time is precious, ok. And if this is my one shot at life, ok. Why did I get so stuck? I find myself coming full circle with everything, no really EVERYTHING. I can easily say nothing matters and then feel as if everything matters five seconds later. I feel as if I am entitled to get stuck but what bothers me the most is that I do nothing about it. Character flaws if you will, sure we all have them and I must remind myself that I still have some damn good qualities in the mix.
Let it be known I am grateful. Let it be known that I was once a completely different person. My life has changed before my eyes and I totally get the "only you can change it" idea. Retraining your brain to think differently is by far the hardest task I have had to come to terms with. No, it is not just acceptance, I will not believe that statement. The challenge of going against ones natural inclination "to do" is mind blowing. Like seriously, the whole don't think...just do...I clearly do not understand.
I will repeat this over and over...stop trying to control the things you have no control over.
I think its time...
